Monday, October 13, 2008

Apparently I Have Been In...


...somewhat of a blur lately.


No Sunday Stroll.....


just a fuzzy funk of indecision, a mix


of many directions, but none of them


clear.


These are reflections of my state of mind and mood.


Reading about the coming elections, (feeling fear) learning new stitches for a different sort of crocheted afghan, knitting a bit, spending my days doing important thing like killing flies who are packing their little carry on bags so that they may enjoy the hospitality of my home.....


making sandwiches for family who have been working the sale here at the nursery.....visiting a loved friend in town (yea!!!!) for the first time in months......wondering how some people do it all.....thinking the other morning about how quickly time goes and how alarming that is.....realizing that by mid January I will be 67....being so grateful for that....and nearly falling to the floor in amazement.....scared that I will never be able to do all that I want to do......and most of all.....feeling great sadness and fear for a very loving and wonderful person who has been in my life as such a healer, who has been diagnosed with cancer.......
feeling sad and a bit bad that I have not been keeping up well with those of you out there who have been so supportive of me......and feeling so blessed to have met such wonderful, amazing, supportive people through this tiny spot of mine.

Wishing all a week that is all that you would hope for.....

Best

6 comments:

jacquie said...

cancer is such a difficult disease to experience through the eyes of a friend. as the election approaches, i'm growing hopeful.

henny said...

Ellen, sorry to hear your beloved friend got cancer. I hope he/she still can have good times with you through this difficult moment.

67? Wow, you might be grateful then for those many years that you had been through :)

Thanks for always visiting my blog.

Amy said...

My thoughts are with you and your friend.

Stay hopeful, I am convinced that the insanity is necessary for the change that is to come :)

And you are a feisty, spring chicken!...ok, maybe not feisty but definitely sweet!

Heather said...

I was just thinking about the flies the other day. They sure to move in at this time of year...

Hang in there, clarity will show itself again in time. Tragedies like this are always mysteriously difficult, though, aren't they?

Jackie said...

Well I have not been keeping up very well either, but still think of you often. Sorry to hear of your friend's bad news, and your state of mind. But glad you are getting to spend time with friends and family. Take care Mom #2, well wishes are being sent your way!

Sarah said...

Ellen, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. It is hard to see our loved ones suffering.

Wishing you all the best. 67 is beautiful. Happy early birthday.