Made tea.. made tea.. sipped Scotch.. cursed.. called on God.. held close to those I loved who were near.. said prayers.. cried again..looked for answers.. asked for answers.. prayed for answers...no answers..too much.. too much..sat with dogs..
What is wrong with this country..why do we have to have damned guns?
This all relates to the small community college that is not that far from where I live..perhaps an hour and a half away. Many of the kids I had in school over the years went there..I went there at times for teacher in-service. This tragedy happened in Roseburg, Oregon. It has happened all over this country. This is just not o.k.
I certainly cannot fix it. I cannot make anything better, except the smallness of the place that surrounds me.
I can send loving thoughts to people who know me not..but perhaps that is a beginning..and, in comfort because this has been too close, I can gather images that help me to heal..because I have lost some loved ones.
(re-reading this, I see I need to be clear..no one in my family was harmed.)